On The Death Of My Father

06 December, 2014

On The Death of My Father

I can neither mourn nor honor the passing of an evil man who continually brutalized and humiliated this fearful and sensitive soul¹, and who, with steely², intractable³ malice and distemper⁴, drove irreconcilable wedges between those who would otherwise have cared for one another; a man who ruined relationships, suffocated hopes and ravaged dreams. Though I consider what might have been, a moment is more than the consideration deserves and the moment is gone.

Between the evil and those who condoned and enabled the evil lies a distinction without a difference, but the evil has been stilled and torments no more. What the decedent⁵ and his coarse, scatological⁶ retinue⁷ intended for my harm, God meant for my good. That God is just should cause them to tremble, but the spiritually insentient⁸, faithless religious dabblers, and the disreputable, treacherous, self-righteous dissemblers⁹ with which the decedent's 'family' is remarkably replete¹⁰ will neither acknowledge the evil, nor comprehend the justice. Save for damnation, such as they are have no place in eternity.

God rules in the hearts, affairs and destinies of all men, but He has chosen to do so by allowing men the exercise of free will. The decedent refused to acknowledge God in life.¹¹ Yesterday the acknowledgement was no longer optional and God turned his back.¹² As there are no tears in heaven, the decedent and his brutal inhumanity will be utterly, and completely forgotten. On the other hand, the decedent will not be able to forget, but will endure the suffusing¹³, inextinguishable¹⁴ anguish of regret and separation¹⁵ beyond this life for time without end.

God is inerrant, just and everlasting, and to His song my heart is attuned. Indeed, joy beyond expression springs from the love of those who matter, and whose love is a gift from God, as the future rings and peals¹⁶ with new life¹⁷, rejuvenated faith and renewed hope.

Soli Deo Gloria,¹⁸

Ronald Matthew Micklin

Table of Notes, Comments and Definitions

Note #	Comment / Definition / Citation
1	“But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.” - Matthew 18:6
2	Relentlessly rigid, Insensitive, stern, unalterable, uncompromising, unyielding…
3	Beyond control, bullheaded, unchangeable, inflexible…
4	Immoderate, ill—humored, malignant
5	Deceased person
6	A preoccupation with feces, filth, and obscenities
7	A body of persons in attendance upon an important personage
8	Without sensation or feeling
9	Those who disguise or conceal their real nature, motives, or feelings behind a false appearance.
10	Abundantly supplied
11	“The fool has said in his heart, there is no God.” - Psalm 14:1
12	“And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment.” - Hebrews 9:27 "Then He will also say to those on His left, 'Depart from Me, accursed ones, into the eternal fire which has been prepared for the devil and his angels” - Matthew 25:42
13	Pervasive, immersed, inescapable
14	To suggest fire, burning…
15	“But Abraham said, ‘Child, remember that during your life you received your good things, and likewise Lazarus bad things; but now he is being comforted here, and you are in agony. ‘And besides all this, between us and you there is a great chasm fixed, so that those who wish to come over from here to you will not be able, and that none may cross over from there to us.’ “And he said, ‘Then I beg you, father, that you send him to my father’s house—for I have five brothers—in order that he may warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.’ “But Abraham said, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets; let them hear them.’ “But he said, ‘No, father Abraham, but if someone goes to them from the dead, they will repent!’ “But he said to him, ‘If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be persuaded even if someone rises from the dead.’” Luke 16:19-31
16	The sound of bells, as in announcement and affirmation
17	New life, as in our new grandson
18	To God alone be the glory (latin)